September 22, 2016

Haven't written in a long, long time.

Release...this year's word for me.

I am releasing much....

*will retire from my job Dec this year...and begin a new season...and am glad.  It is time.

*will again release more grief this Sept 27-9 years since Sarah died tragically in Italy...learning this language and how to breathe in this place.

*releasing more of what is hidden in me--my passion, my talents, my art dreams...more to come as I lean into the inside of me...explore the rooms of my mind

*releasing people who are toxic to me...and beginning to embrace the new ones in my life..and seeing living as joy

A new land

Breathing, living, listening.
Wanting to be a pilgrim not a tourist.
Careful of where I walk.
Wanting to love what I do.
Don't want to follow the crowd or rules.
I want to love each day, all of it...even the most simple stuff. Not be in a hurry.
Linger.
Love.
Sip.
Taste.
Notice.

the air smells like spring.  have just laid many things I have been responsible for down after many years.  Hands open, sensing new.
want to be.
love life.
still sad on days, missing sarah.
have a sense of joy that comes from the land of sorrow, and new things added in the days after.

Welcome

I am feeling it is time to start something new.  Not sure what will become of this new blog, or its purpose...but feel a change in me and want to have a place to become that is different than the blog for grief.  So, we will see...